tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-43704120758750515622024-03-08T12:05:06.323-08:00Life & Its Hard TruthsBand Geek 535http://www.blogger.com/profile/03627927518504792421noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4370412075875051562.post-56915925772449945042019-08-28T09:22:00.002-07:002019-08-28T09:36:01.100-07:00A Little Bit Of Pain Never Hurt Anyone.,, Right?<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
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<span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>As a child I used to think high school would be the worst thing I was ever going to have </b></span></span><br />
<b><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;">to do. </span><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;">Although that's not saying much, because up until I turned 15 I thought </span></span><span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;">that </span></span></b><br />
<b><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;">the world was flat and the </span><span style="white-space: pre;">Government choose our jobs for us. </span></span><span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif;"><span style="white-space: pre;">Boy was I wrong.</span></span></b><br />
<b><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;">You see I'm adopted.</span></span><span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;">I was one of the 'lucky ones', </span><span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;">but I've never</span><span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"> been very</span><span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"> lucky.</span></b><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><b>My biological father was severely abusive, my foster parents were pricks who </b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><b>never fed us, and my adoptive parents were the overbearing Catholic prejudice </b></span><br />
<b><span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;">assholes (pardon my language we don't get along very well). I was taught, </span><span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;">by</span></b><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><b> them, that:</b></span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>Being bisexual,gay, or lesbian was a sin and should be persecuted </b></span></span></span></span></li>
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<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>(I'm bisexual and waited till 19 to tell them. We do not speak anymore)</b></span></span></span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>Sex was only allowed after 30 years old</b></span></span></span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>Computers, the internet, and Television was the devil spawn incarnate</b></span></span></span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>All unmarried people below the age of 40 should have a chaperone on </b></span></span></span></span></li>
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<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>all dates</b></span></span></span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>Movies should only be made and watched if they are pg</b></span></span></span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>Studying was required for 4 hours a day</b></span></span></span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>Cell phone was only for homework,band, which I was required to practice</b></span></span></span></span></li>
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<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b> for for at least 45 minutes per instrument (I played 3/6 regularly by my senior</b></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>year), and track</b></span></span></span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>Cell phone was handed in after a 6pm dinner </b></span></span></span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>Bedtime all year long was 8:30 pm from the age of 13 past the age of 18</b></span></span></span></span></li>
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<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b> (Even in my first months of college where my last class was 6pm and it was a 3</b></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b> hour drive home) </b></span></span></span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>No friends were allowed to stay the night and I, myself, was not allowed to </b></span></span></span></span></li>
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<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>sleep over anywhere unless I wrote a 3-10 page essay on why I should be allowed</b></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b> to go</b></span></span></span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>Exercise was a form of punishment 100-500 situps per fuck up all done at </b></span></span></span></span></li>
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<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>the end of the day before bed, supervised</b></span></span></span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>I wasn't allowed to use the stove to cook</b></span></span></span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>I was never allowed to be home alone</b></span></span></span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>No soda, candy, sugar, etc. Halloween after 14 was not allowed</b></span></span></span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>Mass was required anywhere from 1-3 times a week</b></span></span></span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>I was forced to join the church choir</b></span></span></span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>Youth group was a must</b></span></span></span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>Anyone under the age of 30 were not allowed to whisper under any</b></span></span></span></span></li>
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<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b> circumstances because it was impolite </b></span></span></span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>Children should be seen and not heard</b></span></span></span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>Only allowed a savings account</b></span></span></span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>Car was only for school, work, and forced</b></span></span></span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>choir practice unless approved 1 month in advance</b></span></span></span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre;"><b>I was not allowed to work until after I graduated highschool</b></span></span></span></span></li>
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<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>Needless to say, I moved out of my parents about 4 months after turning 18. </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>My funds were very limited because of their strict rules and I personally had no</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b> clue how to pay Bill's or schedule my own doctors appointments. I moved in </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>with coworkers who taught me that people can be cruel. I Was stripped for their </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>own amusement and nothing more, Thus i learned that adulting sucks and that</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b> the school I went to taught me nothing of the real world. I worked 2-3 jobs at a</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b> time just to survive. </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b> A few months passed and I found my way out of my coworkers and in with a </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>male acquaintance for relatively cheap, only to end up living with a man who</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>beat and berated me. I suffered in silence, terrified that if I spoke up, if I didn't</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>cover the black eyes or reset that broken nose, that I may not live to see the </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>next day. </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>Life got hard when I was forced to quit my job to stay alive because he felt it best </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>I be a housewife (*cough* slave). Death threats and threats of severe beatings</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b> scared me into compliance.</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b> My brother caught on after I asked the man I was staying with if I could go to</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b> easter service at my brother's church. Thankfully he agreed. </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>That day I purposefully made my makeup too light to cover the bruise in hope </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>that when he arrived to take me to church he would notice. Fortunately for me</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b> he did notice and I was moved to a friends house to crash until I managed to </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>get on my feet. Thrice in a year had I moved. I decided it was time to change. </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>I didn't date for a while after that. I barely talked. I was terrified it would happen</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>again. I was disgusted with myself. Time passed and I managed to accept my past.</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b> I forgave myself and then the thing I was most scared of happened. I actually fell</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b> in love. No games, no pain, just love. The butterflies in your stomach type and it</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>scared me. We moved slow. I was skittish. 8 months later I finally felt comfortable </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>enough to tell him of my past. He didn't judge, just listened. </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>So I guess in a way I am very lucky to have met him even though the circumstances</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>could have been better. And yes, I am still with him. It's been a little over a year</b></span></span></span><br />
<b><span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;">now and we are inseparable. I am constantly told I am loved instead of </span></span></span><span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;">threatened </span></span></span></b><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>and kissed instead of bruised. I am happy when I'm with him. Less reserved. I can </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>be me again. </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>Time has a way of making things okay again. I've gone through some shit. I've </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>changed and I've grown more cautious but I'm me. I am strong! I am a fighter! </b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>I will not give up!</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b>This is only the beginning. My life is my own again and I am no longer a slave to</b></span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: georgia, "times new roman", serif; white-space: pre;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="color: black; vertical-align: baseline;"><b> my past. The past doesn't define me as weak. It tells me I am strong.</b></span></span></span><br />
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Band Geek 535http://www.blogger.com/profile/03627927518504792421noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4370412075875051562.post-77492450999856370262019-07-17T09:49:00.002-07:002019-07-17T09:51:00.404-07:00Crazy Past Leads To Adventuring for Small Town Girl<div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b> I guess you can say I wasn't your average, everyday, child. I was crazy and hectic and just all around stupid. I remember being 4 maybe 5 years old and wanting to adopt a skunk instead of a cat. Or how about the sledding from our home roof instead of a mountain of snow on the ground. I can't even count the amount of times I should have broken a bone but didn't.</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b> `I remember the time I let a squirrel into the house to run around and play with me but it got lose from the shoe box I had it in and fell into the pot of boiling water on the stove that had almost fully cooked macaroni noodles in it.. My mother was not happy but we laughed it off then and still do to this day. </b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b> I also remember the doll look alike I convinced my mother to buy for me just so I could scare my younger sister. Gosh she was peeved. </b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b> I remember it like it was yesterday.. I called for my little sister then threw the dismembered doll look alike, that I had put an entire bottle of ketchup on, out my bedroom window and hid on the roof. She came in looked out the window and immediately started crying. Mom was livid for that one. They both had assumed I'd died. I stayed p on the roof for 3 hours before they figured it out and I came inside. My little sister to this day still gets mad at me when I bring it up. To be fair though I was 9 and she was 5. I am a bit ashamed about it but hey, she shouldn't have cut my hair in my sleep the night before. </b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b> Let's just say that I was a bit of a troublemaker back then. I still do crazy stupid stuff but not like then. The adventurer in me though, that will never go away. I am always up to trying new things and a crazy, yet true, story is always fun to tell. </b></span></div>
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Band Geek 535http://www.blogger.com/profile/03627927518504792421noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4370412075875051562.post-13424897457124256662019-07-15T14:57:00.001-07:002019-07-15T14:57:05.238-07:00The beginning<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b> Hello world. It's time to be honest. My name is Amber. I am 20 years old and like most, I haven't accomplished all I have set out to do. In fact, I don't even know what I want to do in life. Maybe I will become a business woman, or a lawyer. Maybe I'll become a nurse. Who knows? </b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b> You see that's the thing. Not many people truly know what they want out of life. Most will spout out the obvious answers like money, or fame, but is it truly what they want? </b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b> I know I love to write, and I'm good at playing instruments. I know that I love to help people but the world is always advancing. It advances faster than the eye can see. So does life. Time will tell me what I want most out of life. Heck, I may never truly know, but I do know this 'Life is what <i>you</i> make it. <i>You</i> choose your own path'. I had to learn that the hard way. </b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b> This blog will take you through some of my many journeys in life. Some terrible and some not so terrible. You will laugh and cry over the stupidity that I tend to get involved in, and hopefully the read will be worth it. So until later. If you dare to read on.</b></span>Band Geek 535http://www.blogger.com/profile/03627927518504792421noreply@blogger.com0